Since leaving the corporate world, I've had 2 different opportunities to go back into very similar jobs with smaller companies. I thought this is what I wanted to do, afterall, I have talent there and have been very successful at it in the past. I've had a job since I was 17. I don't know any other way of living. Going back to work is what I know even though for the last 6 or 7 years, I've prayed often for God to deliver me from bondage of working in a job everyday out of necessity instead of out of passion. I felt the weight of the chains of slavery on me. I knew I wanted something different.
Well, He answered my prayer this past year. I am now free from calendars, clocks and other people's priorities. Why in the world do I want to go back???
Yesterday, another door closed that I thought was opening back to working in an industry I'm very familiar and comfortable with even though it's not my passion. I was bewildered at first because everything just seemed to be going so well. But as that feeling subsided, the Spirit revealed something to me that took my breath away and then left me worshiping and praising God for His providence.
In the book of Exodus, the story is told of the Israelites' bondage in Egypt for 400 years. They cried out to God for release from that bondage. Well, God heard their cries and sent Moses to deliver them and lead them to the promised land. There were many many supernatural miracles witnessed by the Israelites. They KNEW beyond a shadow of a doubt that God was at work in Moses and trusted Him completely. However, what should've been a very short trip to the promised land took 40 years because the Israelites were hard-hearted, discontented, untrusting, and disobedient. At one point they even turned on Moses and blamed him for freeing them from bondage! They would rather go back into slavery where at least they were eating well! I read that account and wonder "how in the world could they distrust and disobey the God that they just not long ago witnessed great miracles from?" Well, I'm doing the same!
I have seen the miracle of new spiritual birth in my own life and in the life of my husband. God brought us out of the influences of our old life into a dessert experience of leaning fully on Him and growing us Spiritually. I have testified to those experiences publically and still feel the exuberance of being a part of something so powerful. And yet, here I am, free from the bondage that I was so miserable in, and looking back and thinking, "well, at least when I was working we had steady income." Egads!!!
I pray often that God test my heart and mind and show me if there's any unclean thing in me. Well, this is one of those revelations! I praise Him for this and am so thankful for it. It gives me great insight into where I am not fully loving Him with all of my heart, soul and mind! So, now I confess this, ask for forgiveness and praise Him for the cleansing and growth that is now taking place in me!
I know for those who don't know God, this will sound totally crazy. I know! It did to me too before I met and really got to KNOW God. You can know Him too. As long as you have breath in you, it's not too late. Ask Him to reveal Himself to you and then hold on!!!!
For my brethren reading this, thank you for holding me up in prayer! My journey in this phase may not be over (I think of the passage in Duet 8:2). But I know that I have a cloud of witnesses surrounding me and cheering me on and that gives me great strength and peace. :-)
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" Matthew 6:25

